Archive | January 2014

Another reason why people are awesome

I know I haven’t written in a while. I’ve gone back to keeping a computerized journal, where I can write a little more freely than publishing it here online. Also I’ve been emailing my friend who’s currently in Thailand, which is kinda like a second journal, so there hasn’t been a lit of point in writing here. Things have been busy. I became a volunteer worker for one thing, I’m a Gateway Seminar Facilitator. It’s like being a teacher, but they call it a “facilitator” because rather than teaching we are supposed to be facilitating discussion about “Inspired Learning and Teaching.” I facilitated my first seminar yesterday. Most of the others got to observe a seminar before facilitating one, but I was one of the first so I didn’t have that option.

It didn’t go terribly, but I was a little down with the results. I thought there was more I could have done. I emailed my friend, going into detail which I won’t bother to include here. I still feel great about being a facilitator, like that’s what I’m supposed to do at this time, but I was significantly humbled and in a little bit of emotional distress.

Then today, my other good friend (he is, in fact, engaged to the friend currently in Thailand) brought me some chocolate. One bar was labeled “Day-after-bad-day-bar” and the other was labeled “Anti-bad-day-bar.” It was so sweet, and for a while I couldn’t’ figure out how he knew about my bad day yesterday. Then I realized that his fiancé must have told him and asked him to cheer me up (I had said in the email that after that experience I could do with some chocolate). That means that I not only have one, but two of the best friends in the world. How do people get this awesome? I want to be like that. It was one of the sweetest gestures I’ve ever received.

And all I could think of to do was say thank you.

But at least I got to be creative with the thank you. I created this card by putting my iTunes visualizer on full screen, taking a screenshot, and adding in words.

 

Project completed

I don’t have much time, I just wanted to say I finished creating a little video. I guess I’ll call it an illustrated talk. It’s a slideshow to accompany an excerpt of President Uchtdorf’s talk “Happiness, Your Heritage.” It’s a project I’ve wanted to do for a long time actually, so I’ll see if I can find a way to make it available for viewing.

 

Oh yeah, school’s great. But busy! I’ve got volunteer work. I’ve gone to a couple of training meetings, but I do it for real for the first time on Wednesday. Wish me luck! So far I’ve been able to stay on top of homework, but it could be a bumpy ride. And my two best friends are engaged! Happiness! Also fatigue, but such is life.

Still here

This could be the longest time i’ve gone without blogging since I set it up. Well, I’m here in Rexburg, the chaos has died down for the most part, and my wonderful friend took my sister and I to see Frozen, which was quite enjoyable I must say. It made me want to draw, but I don’t think my schoolwork will allow me much free time.

And yet somehow that didn’t stop me from getting myself involved in a different project. I’m always assigning myself projects. Sometimes I even finish them, more more often they morph into something else. Still, this is one I really want to complete and have an impact. As always that is easier said than done. And in the meantime, I’m putting off homework to work on it. If I don’t let it distract me too much, I think I can stay on top of my classes and get good grades, but again it’s not looking like I’ll have very much free time.

Don’t get me started

So this is my first post of the year. The reason why I didn’t make any previous posts was because I didn’t think you guys wanted to hear about how anxious I was about leaving. I love it in BYU-I, but for some reason I’m always reluctant to return there and eager to leave when it’s almost over. I don’t know why it bothers me so much, it’s so irrational. But my stupid emotions take over. The result is that the impending flight makes me anxious, even to the point where I lose my appetite (which is quite devastating to me, as you can imagine). I didn’t plan on posting until after I had gotten into Rexburg and I had settled down and was ready to take on the new year.

That was supposed to have been today. But it won’t be.

It started out fine. We got up early, we arrived early, we got in the plane on time. But they had let the water in the plane freeze overnight instead of doing the proper procedures which would have taken care of it. When it became obvious I would miss my connection, I had to make calls to reschedule my flight and my shuttle. My new flight couldn’t be arranged for today, I’m going to have to wait for tomorrow. I had to stand in line for a long time so I could talk to an agent, and then wait some more at baggage claim, and ask Dad to pick me up and take us home, so that we can wake up super early tomorrow to try the whole thing again.

I was hungry and thirsty, but was too stressed out to take care of it. Besides, I had to make calls and watch luggage, dragging along with me a heavy carry-on and laptop case. And, because I have low emotional stamina, I cried. I hate crying, but I can never, ever seem to help it. When I came home, my face was red , so one of my sisters thought I was cold. Then felt it and found out it was hot. Yeah, that would be because of the crying, but I couldn’t explain that without breaking down again. Did I mention that my other sister had already moved into my room by the time I returned?

I had so looked forward to having this whole thing over, and to seeing one of my friends this evening. Now that won’t happen. I’ll be scraping for a couple of hours of sleep before the nightmare begins again. I’ll be traveling on a Sunday too, which is never ideal for me. There are many things I’m grateful for, situations we avoided, but right now I just feel a little bit miserable and I want some chocolate.

 

 

On the way back home we turned on the radio and the very first song was “Bad Day.” HAH!