Today I feel unwell. Yet in a way I feel grateful. I feel like I’ve really been pushing myself this semester, but there’s a difference between challenging oneself and going at it too hard. Sometimes it’s hard to distinguish between the two, and I think maybe I’ve been going at it harder than I need to. Feeling sick has forced me to rest, and I don’t have to feel guilty about it. In fact, I’ve considered the possibility that all of my accumulated stress is part of the reason I’m feeling ill right now. Thankfully, I have no pressing assignments, just a few big assignments due at a later date. Sometimes it’s hard to know how to pace those.
I like to think that as I grow older, it’ll be easier to identify when I need to let myself slow down. In the meantime, I’ll just keep taking it week by week.