It’s interesting to me what a comfort it is to… dream about the future, when things aren’t quite so wonderful at present. Like me. I’m essentially done with the semester, it’s been a long semester, and yet I don’t feel triumphant or at peace. I’m going on a family vacation when school’s over, but I am discontent because I think this family vacation is going to keep me from spending as much time with my family as I otherwise would. I’m still trying to reconcile myself with it, because I don’t want to have a negative attitude toward this opportunity that I don’t get very often.
So when I don’t know what to do… I dream. It’s like what I was a kid, and I’d dream about Christmas. Not what Christmas was likely to be like, but what I would like it to be like. It’s the same now, when I think about the Fall, when I won’t be in school. Some things are certain to happen, like my brother coming home. But for the rest of it… I can speculate. I can spend a lot of time with my family, and we’ll have movie nights and play games together and go to the indian mound and stuff like that. I create some beautiful artwork. It would be really lovely to get Duel Destinies, the fifth Phoenix Wright game, once it’s come out in english. Also, I think it would be great if Mom got a book published. And that my sisters can finish their creative writing projects.
It’s just nice to think that these things can happen. It soothes the mind to contemplate them.