School will be finished in less than a month. A little over three weeks, actually. That’s not much time at all. In theory, then, I’ll have time to work on some projects. Lately I’ve had a rekindled desire to create something. I am grateful for this semester, because I have been able to create– in my Creative Writing class and in my Basic Writing class. I’m grateful to have that opportunity to get feedback and help from professors.
There are some particular achievements from this school year that I am particularly grateful for and excited about. One is my Heritage Notebook. It was an assignment from my Classical Heritage class, and what it did was help me learn skills that I later applied to creating Adin and Laura’s engagement present. I’m also proud of the video I made about creating. I was able to share it yesterday, and that was a good experience. I very much like the creative nonfiction work I wrote for my creative writing class, and it’s been exciting to work on this piece of fiction as well. I’m also proud of the opinion essay I wrote in my basic writing class.
I can’t help but wonder what else I can do. I’m sure there’s great work still to be done. Could I create a gift for somebody else, like I did with Adin and Laura?
It is still uncertain whether or not I’ll be here next semester. Wish me luck.
Well, I’m procrastinating on my homework, which is a shame, because I’m usually good about keeping that up. Yesterday was bad, because I got caught up in a new activity.
It started when I found out I wasn’t giving a talk in Sacrament Meeting after all (which I was a little miffed to discover), so I had to reformat the talk into a lesson plan so I could still use it for my Final project in Religion class. While I was working on it, I got the weird idea to create a visual for it. After toying with the idea, I came up with this:
It was also my first time working with sort of overlapping images. Remember I’m doing this all without Photoshop too, this was created using Pages. Once I made this, I had to do some experimenting to see what else I could do.
I’ve been doing some creative writing as well. This is not a good time to get caught up in spurts of creativity, Finals are coming up. These next few weeks are going to be really important to my grade. Nevertheless, I am grateful to have been able to explore, at least a little bit.
Well my friends, I found out I’m not nearly so close to done with that big project that I had thought I was, and I wasn’t finished facilitating seminars either– I went in once more to substitute a final session. I’ll be doing some volunteer work for most of Saturday. I’m doing something new, face painting. I wonder how well that will go. Maybe I’ll have pictures.
Life looking to be a quite busy and a bit sleep deprived from now until finals, but for all that I’m still loving life. I owe a lot of it to my friends, the love they have shown me has had a bigger impact on me than they can ever imagine. I hope to have the same effect on others.
Next semester is going to be even more challenging. My two best friends are getting married to each other, I’ve got to prepare myself for an unknown future… who knows what kinds of projects I will involve myself with. There’s no way I could have anticipated what I did this semester, and it has been an interesting one. I made a bunch of homemade cards, I helped my roommates prepare for lessons and a wedding, I became a Seminar Facilitator, I developed some sort of story ideas… Life is so full. It’s hard, it’s exhausting, but I love it nonetheless.
So sorry I didn’t make a Christmas post. Christmas was a bit bigger than I expected, and I’ve been busy ever since it.
We siblings pitched in our Christmas money to get the latest Phoenix Wright game. I told you how excited I was during the school year when I found out about the existence of such a game. It was one of the little things I would think about to make me happy when things were getting rough. I’m almost done with it now (the finale case is super intense, I needed a break). I approve of all the slight changes they made to the game play, the cases were intriguing, and as far as organization goes, it looks like they’ve shaken things up a little bit. There are good story/character moments as well.
As for the homemade audiobooks I gave, as far as I know only my youngest sister has listened to all of them. Her response was positive, but I always knew her to be the biggest fan of my work. I’m grateful that the ‘comedic storytelling’ CD was a success, since that one was the most experimental. Making these CDs was a wonderful experience. It’s great to at last make a homemade gift that’ is of decent quality and purpose (I sometimes get rather aghast at what people think would make a good homemade gift– it’s usually either to difficult to make without a thorough knowledge of the skills involved, or it’s pointless for anything but decorative purposes and flimsy to boot) I think I would like to do this more in the future. There are so many creative possibilities. It’s enough to drive one mad. I would like to explore this so very, very much. But there are things in life that must be attended to, like housekeeping and school and maybe one of these days, a job. Not enough hours in a day.
But take a look: Here’s a picture of what I managed to get done for my siblings for Christmas. Enjoy the day my friends.
It’s been a while since I’ve last written. Well, I’ve been really busy with those projects. It’s been tiring, I’m ready to be done with it all. I’m almost done… I guess. It’s at the point where I’m like, “Well, it’s not brilliant but there’s not much more I can do to it.” I’m not sure how brilliant these recordings actually are, it’s not easy to measure without someone on the receiving end. I’m torn between my desire to do a good job and my desire to have done and get it wrapped and under the tree already.
We don’t have any presents under the tree yet. I suppose that’s part of the reason why Christmas seemed to come so fast this year, there hasn’t been a lot of anticipation involved. Low-budget holiday. I’m good with that, though of course there are the corners of my soul that feel it’s a rather anti-climatic way to end the year. I’m chalking that up to the crankiness I’ve been feeling lately, because I’m a terribly light sleeper and since my bedroom’s right next to the living room (which hears the most activity), sometime’s it’s hard to feel like I’m getting adequate sleep.
I’m trying to let my mind be calm. Peaceful. Like this image I just finished creating today. Thank goodness it’s done. Another project off my shoulder and to my credit, which I’m still struggling to feel triumphant about (it’ll be a delayed reaction I’m sure). This is what I said about it when I posted it on Facebook: “At last it is done. For those who like to see me post artwork, I’m sorry I haven’t for a while, I’ve been involved with other projects. Time consuming, exhausting, but hopefully worthwhile projects. This probably only got done because my sister had to borrow my laptop for something, and I able to take a break from what I’m doing. This image was inspired from a great piece of literature, A Christmas Carol. I was thinking of the Ghost of Christmas Past when it came to mind, but did not create it based on the description Dickens gave. I thought this would be prettier. In the end I think this image is… pretty sorta close to what I hoped it would look like. Kind of.”
My art teacher would always say “It’s friday gang” on fridays.
Wonder of wonders, I did some coloring today. It’s been a long time since I’ve worked on any art– about a month. It’s weird being back, because the pattern is so familiar, but it still has kind of a new feeling to it. As I said before, I don’t want to let my art skills get rusty because I’m working on other projects. I still hope to get those projects done before Christmas (less than two weeks already?) but this morning I’ll be doing art. I may work on my project in the evening. See, there’s a Christmas part at my church, but not all of the family will fit into our car, so some will stay behind. It would be perfect if I was left behind, because I can’t record comfortably with people around. Unfortunately, there’s always someone in the house, which is very small and not really sound proof. That’s why I usually go into the car to record, but that’s been harder to do since it got cold. But I might have the house to almost to myself this evening, so that’s a possibility.
I love that I can keep myself busy with all these projects and trying new things. It’s a wonderful opportunity. I just wish I could… give back somehow. Despite all that I do, sometimes I wonder if I’m actually contributing. But I think it has and will pay off in the little things, like when my friends ask for one of my prints or when my little sister quotes my comic to me.
Another thing I’ve learned from listening to myself record my work and having it play back to me as I go through the editing is that I’m a weak writer. I kinda expected to discover that. Still, I didn’t anticipate this many holes in my work. It would almost take an entire rewrite. I suppose it’s good that I have this experience, even though I don’t know what good it will do in the long run. When I think about it, this year isn’t the first time I wondered how feasible it would be to create a homemade audiobook. I’ve wondered for a while. Having a laptop and time has allowed me to explore the possibility.
I just… would love to be able to create something really cool. I get excited when my family and I create something. My sister finished an afghan blanket, my Mom and brothers are collaborating in creating a strategic swashbuckling game, and another of my sisters is creating a computer game. This is all really good. But then…. then I look at music videos, like by The Piano Guys and I read books and I look at other people’s artwork and…. And I think there is so much out there, so much potential, and I haven’t even brushed up against it. What if I could do something truly amazing
I’ve been continuing to work on my various projects. I really enjoy this work, although I still get anxious, wondering if this is a good use of my time or if I should be thinking more of my financial stability. I’m actually reaching some of the funner stages of the work. I’m seeing things come together, and I have a better idea of what to do and what not to do than when I began. I’m getting more material like I wanted for the comedy CD, so that’s a hopeful sign. I think I can get this done in time for Christmas. Although, it’s been a bit harder getting the recording done, because that’s hard to do while my siblings are home, and bad weather has been giving them snow days or two-hour delays.
The work is still exhausting. And in fact, sometimes I think I need to pull away from my work and relax a little bit, but it’s hard to do because what I’m doing is funner than a lot of leisure activities.
I like seeing it come together though, and I can tell that I’m improving. I don’t know to what end I’m doing this, but it is fun and I hope that it is valuable.
My brother had to borrow my laptop. I guess it was for the best. I’ve been having a hard time breaking away from my work. Sometimes I get the sense that work is more fun than play. But being off the computer meant that I could actually do a good job of cleaning the kitchen and such. Then I got what I thought was a good idea. I went roller skating. I started roller skating as a kid. It began when I watched figure skating competitions on TV and decided I wanted to be a figure skater. Mom, always supportive, told me I should start by learning to roller skate. So I did. It was a good time, most scraped knees I’ve ever had in my life. When I outgrew the skates, I didn’t get new ones, and I never really got back to them since. But last year my younger brother got a pair for Christmas, and I thought that this would be a great opportunity to take a trip back to childhood.
It turned out to be more like high school gym class. I felt a bit nauseous by the time I came home. I don’t know if it’s because I’m really out of shape, or if I’m slightly asthmatic (something I’ve suspected for a long time) or maybe I was just dehydrated or needed to stretch or something.
So much for reliving the bubble and balloon days of my childhood with the gentle careens of wheeled footwear. That chance is out the window, and it looks like the possibility of ever getting the family in the habit of actually having a sit-down dinners with all of us together is going in the same direction.
Today could have been better.
But life goes on. I’ll continue to work through the evening. Work makes me happy.
In the course of making these audiobooks, a lot of what I’m discovering is what not to do. The process is a bit longer and harder than I originally thought, and it’s all the longer and harder for me because I don’t really know what I’m doing, I’m just playing around with it to see what works. It’s incredibly frustrating, because I want to fix the work that I’m doing, and my attempts to fix only seem to make it worse. I guess it’s kinda like art that way. Things were nicer with the previous audiobook, slapdash work with a program that I liked (but it was only a demo, so I couldn’t work with it any more).
I’ve also been involved in creative writing, trying to pull together my several attempts at creating some fun lighthearted fairy tale based story. Maybe I’ll make that into another audiobook. But again, these recordings aren’t going as brilliantly as I would like.
With all the focus I’m putting in these projects, I’m having a hard time focusing on things like domestic chores and such. I’m so wrapped up in what I’m doing, and I can’t tell if it’s a good thing. And I’m starting to doubt I’ll be able to get all that I want to done before Christmas. I’ll be in the middle of one project, and then I’ll start another and in the end, does anything get done?